Real Talk Being an Indie Kid is Hard Especially When Your Black( I am Who I am)

All my life I’ve been called an Oreo(http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=oreo) and my black card (http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=black%20card&defid=7777488) has always been on probation. But I’ve grown to accept that I am who I am and I’m not changing for anyone. It wasn’t til college I realize that Indie culture was something I identify with and deeply adore. So every since I was younger I love to read all sort of things, fiction, historical fiction, comic books and later manga; I would say 90% of the time my head was in a book. My accent is made of proper American English, California speech, bit valley girl/preppy/ and some kinda east coast thing (I get it from my mom). I have always been sarcastic and watch films that probably way to old for me but hey it is what it is. So you can imagine how the other kids would be like “this girl is weird and not one of us”. My only saving grace was that I did like Britney Spears and a good amount of Hip Hop (90’s hip hop is still my shit ok) so I just kept my love of alternative rock and grunge to myself.

When I got to middle school I was more allowed to express myself through clothes which often called out by all ethnic groups as being “not black”. This often distress me because I was black and may not like all things black but I shouldn’t be ridicule for it. As I got older it became less of heartache or proving myself to other people accept that fact that I have a diverse group of friends, that thrifting shopping is my hobby(thanks mom for getting started) and that my ideas might be strange or abnormal but there mine. What I love most about Indie culture is how chill back and accepting they are. There is limited judgement as long as you are a 100% true to yourself. Its not easily define group and there’s no constraint on what Indie is or what is not.